My Mother's Funeral

My mother, Addie Bundren. Her funeral was today. She died because she was really sick. A lot of people in my family and others that live on the farm, think that she got sick from eating a bad fish. Who knows, just recently many people on the farm have been getting sick. And no one has enough money to pay for any sort of medicine. Being pregnant with a baby I do not wish to keep, has made me very overwhelmed with anxiety. Although it was her funeral, I didn't really pay much attention, and I felt that I didn't even mourn at all. Becuase of this baby that is inside me, I can't take it anymore. I want an abortion so badly. My father, Anse said that my mother will be burried in the town of Jefferson, just like my mother hoped for before she died. My father keeping his promise, my family and I will be on our way on the wagon with my mom's casket. Like I said, I'm going to pray to come across a doctor on the way there. I still haven't told my dad, and I hope he'll never find out.